Timeless.

I feel so useless. 

It’s Saturday night. Usually, around this time. I’d be waiting for you to pick me up. I’d look out my window for your car to show up. Then, when you’re there. I’d walk happily going to your car & give you a big hug. We usually go to the underground or take naps. Just being with you on those Saturday nights. & even before, if I didn’t get to see you on a Saturday night. You’d ask if we could see each other the next day. Come to think of it, there were weekends when we spent each day together. Friday night, Saturday night, Sunday afternoon. I loved the weekends before. But now, I can’t help but wait for school on Monday to see you again. Cos that’s the only time we see each other. School. But I really can’t complain. I guess, I just miss you. It’s fun to go out with friends on the weekends but it’ll be nice even if we have some sort of date. Just strolling around, hand by hand, in the moonlight. It’ll… just be my perfect night that I haven’t had in awhile. 

I know I may be super emotional at times. I may be worrying about things that I shouldn’t be worrying about. I may be insecure & jealous sometimes. But when I’m feeling this way, it hurts. But there’s nothing I can do about it. I need your hug to make me feel better. But I have to wait to get that. At times like this, I just wish you knew… that simple, tight hug would make everything feel much better.

I feel so trapped… 

you’re not related to me. But no one has ever fucking cursed to me as much as you do. No one has ever said some nasty things to me as much as you do. & no one has ever made me feel like shit as much as you do. 

Sorry guys. :[ just needed somewhere to vent out.

We all know, a NEGATIVE times a NEGATIVE = Positive.

Can this work in real life?

When you’re with someone and he really wants to be with you in this way where it’s like you’re the only girl in the world for him, then it’s obvious and everyone feels it.  Even people watching you walking down the street feel it.  You radiate this kind of happiness that’s infectious, like sunshine.  It’s like you light up the whole world from your own euphoric glow.

As the days pass by, I get much stronger. Stronger than I’ve ever thought. But this doesn’t come just like that. You go through struggles that make you a stronger person. “No pain, no gain.” Right? I’m living by that line.